Today I had my first student tell us she was pregnate. It was heart wrenching. What do we have to tell kids inorder for them to be not so stupid? I mean I am the last person to preach about this, but why is physical intimacy so important that you would ruin your youth doing. The risks are so huge.
It is in moments lie these that I want to ask some one... anyone... to stop the madness
It is in these moments I know I need a savior...
I am leading at DCF this week and I am really excited about it. I thought practice was going to go better tahn it did. It is a hard thing you know leading people. The band is full of talented musicians. There is however a blend of personalities that one must pay attention to in order to be successful. It was a hard night and my title is how I feel right now. I love all the guys in the band. Its jsut hard to get a set together in 3 hours. I am way excited about sunday though. I know the band is going to work hard at learning the music. I need to work hard at remembering the words. Anyways... I'll Forest Gump out by saying... thats all I gotta say about that.
I think I may just be bugged tonight...
I for some reason feel really lonely. I think it's just becasue my parents weren't here today. I miss them. I understand they have a lot on their plate, but sometimes I just want more than what is practical.
Im just bugged. I have a lot to change in my life... I need to get serious about changing it.
So I was up at seven thirty this morning in a meeting for our service programming. Basically its a place were friends and I get to be creative early in the morning. Well, I am leading worship in two weeks, and we were brainstorming a song that would point us to the lament of God through Amos (Chapter 5). I love my church because the song we chose was a Smashing Pumpkins song called Stand Inside My Love. Its amazing check it out. Here are the lyrics:
You and me
Meant to be
Immutable
Impossible
It's destiny
Pure lunacy
Incalculable
Insufferable
But for the last time
You're everything that I want and ask for
You're all that I'd dreamed
Who wouldn't be the one you love
Who wouldn't stand inside your love
Protected and the lover of
A pure soul and beautiful you
Don't understand
Don't feel me now
I will breathe
For the both of us
Travel the world
Traverse the skies
Your home is here
Within my heart
And for the first time
I feel as though I am reborn
In my mind
Recast as child and mystic sage
Who wouldn't be the one you love
Who wouldn't stand inside your love
And for the first time
I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for
Your every move and waking sound
In my time
I'll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind
You're mine forevaaaa.. now
Who wouldn't be the one you love and live for
Who wouldn't stand inside your love and die for
Who wouldn't be the one you love
Have you ever ahd those moments were you just feel so far away from the heart of God? I am in one of those times. I am having at the same time a huge creativity spurt. I am trying to understand how I feel so far away yet I am so connected to my spiritual talent, gift, heart, mind, soul. I have not been forcing myself into the word. This is the week I am going to do it. I am going to try and scratch and dig for something. I am going toward the book of James. If you ahve any insight or thought let me know. Pray that i become connected again.
So my roommate Dan came out of his room this morning saying he wanted to be a glam rocker. For those of you who don't know what a glam rocker is check out these pics...
I think he can pull the Zoolander off really well.
Well here are some cool videos that I have seen online lately check them out...
Invisible Children Global Night Commute Highlight
Zefrank's thoughts on his 9/11 experience
What do you want to be when you grow up?
The beginnings of a documentary me and a friend are doing
Have Fun!
I have been really hit by the message of this quote today. It pretty much summarizes my spiritual jouney in the past few weeks. My life with Jesus has been stale. I mean really stale. I have not gotten into the Word at all since I have been back at school. I have however been in the idea in the quote above...
My friend Nathan and I have been putting together a series of videos that will eventually form into my first documentary. It is about the rural and not so rural areas of Clemson. SPecifically its about those people who live on the other side of the margin. Nathan has begun to put questios into my mind about the so called "margins" of socioeconomic/racial classes that society places on us. Who put the barriers there? How did they get them there? What happens if I go in and out of them freely? Can I even do that?
I have foudn the the quote above summerizes my heart. Its basically the focus of the very blurry picture I have now. I want to come to know what it means to truely care about someone else more than myself.
